I Went to the Cross

I went to the cross but I could not stay....someone said God wasn't there that day.
I went to the cross every day, every hour...my heart was growing weary and sour.
I finally pushed my self away and then I knelt down and prepared to pray
Lord God bless this wretched servant of your tender care
For eighteen years I was simply not there.
Accept the pleas of my tender heart, I pray that we shall never part.

Dear God,
I wrote you a poem that tells you how I feel at having lost you and then discovering you. My entire world is yours. Please take me and use me as you can. You are telling me that I can spread your word, that I can be a missionary but I don't see the workings. Please show me what I should do. Make me yours.

The Deacon's Outburst--His Outrageous Message

Last Sunday my cousin was attending membership classes for her church. Each week a different person teaches the class. A deacon was teaching this class. He gave the members his phone number in case they had questions.

Pam had a question about prayer. People in her workplace are coming up to her even though she doesn't know them and asking her to pray with them. She had asked God for one gift, the gift of compassion.

The deacon's response: Satan has taken you over, get down on your knees and pray that he will not leave. You do not have the right to pray with others, it is putting you in a position that you should not be in.

OH MY GOSH!! I don't think that is a message that God would ever preach. She has never pretended to be anything but a compassionate person that prays with someone when they ask. She is very careful how she prays. She has been very careful not to seek people out.

The prayer minister had told Pam that she had been given a gift and to use it. Pam has never sought attention with her gift. God gave her a gift and she is spreading his message with just her caring.

Celebration for Jesus

As I attended the "A Grand New Day" conference in Phoenix, I was absolutely inspired by the testimonies of the speakers. I have been to many National Conferences and heard many National speakers BUT this was different. The speakers spoke from their hearts. It was obvious that the Holy Spirit was in each one of them. They did not speak to the audience, they shared their story, sometimes off in a world of their own. The testimonies were inspiring, heart wrenching and exhilarating. Normally I gain more when I am at the celebration because of the other people in attendance. This time I have gained so much more as I sit in my house and really spend time going over what they said. The Christian music was from the mouths of angels. Every song spoke of the passion that the attendees had for our Lord. They were not songs, they were dedications. I thank you Lord for the opportunity to attend. I will cherish it forever.

Inadequacy

No story to tell, no addictions to handle, no divorces to share. God has blessed me and I am so inadequate. God has provided for me many times over and I never thanked him. I bless him now every day for the beautiful non-challenging life. I am about as boring as vanilla ice cream. My travel experiences are over, my sharing with many groups from around the country are over. My days of giving my time to many teens is gone. My absolute passion of building two wells for Uganda is still in tact. The water wells are for God. The wells are so that a small African village may live. I have sold my precious jewelry to donate to the wells. They are just stones. I should have received much more for them but I will donate what God has given me. The gems mean nothing but the funds that they generated are so very precious to me. Dear God, Here I am, use me. Let me testify to the pre-believers, let me mission in your field. I praise you for the opportunity to travel to Israel. I praise you for the opportunity to learn your word. I praise you for my Christian friends. Dear God, take this inadequate person and make me shine for you. Create me to be more and more like Jesus. Thank you for giving me the wonderful example of two very very special Christian friends who are always there for me. Please keep them safe and always be with them. Thank you for my beautiful daughter who has kept me in her prayers.