For over six months, I have been absolutely scared to death. Although I had never been scared before even while speaking with Alma Powell (Colin's wife), Lee Iacocca, David Battey, Margarite Kondrake, Lois Marie Gibbs, Lynn Sherr, Eleanor Cliff, and many more important people.........I froze when it came to speaking with my most ....cherished friends. I froze when it came to speaking with my Christian friends. I could not speak up. I just sat. The skills I had become so comfortable with just did not work. I had asked God to humble me but to completely take away my voice? I finally asked my cousin and my son, what should I do? They both told me to share that information with my friends. I prayed to be normal and then went out to New Years eve dinner with my friends. I finally told them I did not know why but they made me absolutely nervous. Their response "we know" and they laughed. They weren't sure why. I never felt I could ever be as brave or religious as they were. I never felt that God could ever accept me the same as he did them. One friend was a Messianic Jew and had gone against her families religion because she was so in love with Jesus. One had walked many blocks by herself as a 5 year old child in an inner city to reach the place that people talked about Jesus although her family did not attend and one was an attorney that had given up her career to become my pastor. I knew Jesus did not judge these things but I knew I was just a person, nothing more. So...........where does this take me?
I have asked God to keep me humble but to let me share. I sent them all a letter explaining me and I sent my first email..........inviting one of them to a monthly lunch at a certain place, a certain time and then added how assertive it was. I got back a response that "yes it was assertive and that I was cute" Cute? I guess I will accept Cute.
OH GOD HAS CREATED THE MOST BEAUTIFUL MIRACLE YOU MIGHT EVER WANT TO SEE. WITHIN FIVE AND A HALF WEEKS WE HAVE EARNED ENOUGH MONEY FOR SIX WATER WELLS FOR UGANDA.
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