Thank You God for your Outcome

Ok............so 7 years have passed. No mammorgram. I feel good, I self exam and find nothing and I feel secure. Hummmmmmmmmmm, my grandmother, my mother and her two sisters all had breast cancer. They are all had their breasts removed, all but one is dead.

As I went to lunch with my pastor, we talked about Dina. I don't know why but I mentioned my family's history. Oh my. She knew we had no insurance but she asked if it was because of money, if so she would provide some of the pastors discressionary money. I said no. She asked if I was afraid as she would set up a meeting and we would talk. I said no. Then she gave me a deadline. February 17th and February 28th. February 28th is a Sunday, what is that date for? I made an appointment and the test came back beautifully. I would never have done gone in, I had been given the form by the doctor last June.

I thank you God for the deadline...........I thank you for the results............I thank you for a caring friend.

A Wedding Blessing

I have been shy from appearance in helping with my son and his finances wedding plans. Funds are short, plans are scattered and an excited finance has been come discouraged.

Yesterday God whispered in my ear.............you need to call her, you need to find out if she needs some help. I had been avoiding her as I felt her mother was there for her but I found out the answer was no.

Yesterday we went shopping, we bought bubbles, we bought flower baskets, we bought invitations, we checked into a cake and tuxcedos. We will do more tomorrow. God is working. He has kept the prices to a minimum. He has directed us to where we can find items needed. The shopping has been a delight.

I bless you so much God...........I am thanking you for your help. I thank you for the time you have put Alishia and I together. She needs to be lifted up and you are doing that. Her wedding is so important to her. I know you will be there.

Thank You God for My Sins

This has been a tough week and a half. God has given me many challenges and some I have addressed and some I have denied. I have been so hurt when a friends brother died in his 40's. He had a very short time of being diagnosed with cancer on his lungs and liver. He flew to New York to receive some treatment and then was told he had no longer than a week to live. My friend had not seen his brother for 15 years, he was to fly out at midnight and would be in PA for a week. God for some reason put a hold on the plane and it did not fly. The weather had canceled the flight but I really feel that God canceled it. That evening his brother died. It was tough and to try and figure out why seemed senseless. My friend is angry, hurt and trying to figure it out.

Several weeks ago one of my dearest friends went into the hospital as her doctors request. She had a severe backache. She has had numerous boughts with her platlets and had a battle with leukemia. She is such a strong Christian and I just hurt for her. Again, I am praying for BHAP prayers (Big) God told me he would hold her and he would heal her. There are 3 kinds of healing so I have to trust him. She has developed pneumonia and has a blood clot.

The same day I found out that the hospital had messed up on putting her port in, I went to the Pastors Prayer luncheon. We were to pray over the Pastors for their requests. As I stood over my pastor, God told me to say something and out loud I told him I could not say that. He told me again to say it and again I denied him. I just broke down and cried for a day and a half. I had sinned so much but I could not say what he wanted me to. I think Satan grabbed me and made me cry so hard. That night I woke up at 1:30 and God exited me from earth to view the Universe. He said, "I made this, it is mine, when you are feeling sad, frustrated and overwhelmed back up and take a look at what I have made." That is when I asked about Marsha and was told he would hold her and would heal her. On Sunday when I went to church, I went to the cross and the prayer minister said that Marsha would be healed. I have to trust God.

I had so much guilt from saying no to God, two times, out loud and I meant it. I asked for forgiveness finally and mentioned something brief to my pastor and asked for forgiveness from her. She said it was done.

I hope I never ever am put in a situation that I deny God again. I know now what it feels like to be in true hell for that denial.

Miss Gerry...............

Three weeks ago my friend Gerry's daughter arrived to pick up her mother. She had been diagnosed with Alzheimers. Gerry moved into an assisted living facility in Tucson near her daughter. The facility has a bedroom and bath and is in a big house. I talk to Gerry every week end. She is extremely unhappy and extremely unsatisfied with leaving her beautiful home. Her daughter feels she is taking care of her mother. When I talk with Gerry she seems absolutely normal. I do not see any Alzheimer characteristics at least right now. I am so sad unto myself. I do not know what to tell her. I finally visited with her daughter for over an hour. God told me to tell her daughter then back away. So I have. I hope God will work in her heart to give her comfort in the decision that is made.