The Big Crash

My life has been on such a high for over ten months and last week I crashed. I crashed big time. Satan had sent a horrid dream. Although I physically had things to do during the week, I was feeling nothing and yet I was feeling so much. So much pain. I had isolated myself from normal activity in life and yet hurt so much when my friends brother was listed as critical. For the first time, my homework assignment didn't get done. I spent a long time in the shower just talking to God and overflowed the shower. There was no day. I went shopping and felt nothing. I helped with an event and felt nothing. I helped in the office and felt nothing. I became a robot.

Well, I am really glad that week is gone. After not being really challenged other than by a teacher, I was challenged all week long. I attended two church services, spent four hours visiting with my cousin as she helped me through my week, I went to lunch with some friends after church and I am ready to start over again. I will no longer brag about not having been challenged. It was a week of little things adding up, one after another after another and now my heart is so tender toward things, I just crashed.

I have handed my life over to God and I have realized how insignificant what I did was as I never gave him credit. I understand now that I have a lot to contribute but it will all be contributed for him. He humbled me and is giving me a new chance.
I can not hide from the real world but need his help in setting my direction.

Celebration of 34 Years

Thirty four years ago we added a beautiful boy to our family. Today we celebrated his birthday with lots of pizza, pop and cake. That was his choice of what to eat. Three hours were spent at Peter Piper Pizza with his girlfriend and her son. I remember when God gave me Sean. We were so delighted to have a young healthy son. The doctors thought he might have some medical problems since I had only been off the birth control pills for one week when I went back on. During that week the business his dad worked for had been sold and we had decided that it was not a good time to add another famiy member. But God gave me Sean during that week. My husband and his partners started their own Title Insurance business. The business was very successful.

We were delighted and today as he walked into the pizza parlor, Jesus Stands Behind You T shirt on and a half inch cross tattoo on his thumb, I knew God had a plan for all of us. I am so proud of my son, he is honest, loving, and a hard worker. He glows in his eyes when he looks at me and gives me the biggest hugs any one could share. This year he is giving me the gift of attending church with me on Christmas. That is ALL I asked for and that is what he has agreed on. I love you so much Birthday Boy. Love Mom

Gods Miracles

I am so absolutely blessed. God is granting miracles. My darling granddaughter has prayed for years for a horse and on her 14th birthday, she was given TWO. My friend Dina has been so very blessed with God's grace in the handling of her stage four cancer. God has strengthened her spirit and her body every week. HOW COULD I NOT BELIEVE THAT HE IS SO VERY IN CHARGE. He has even dropped my blood pressure from 150-108. Next year I will be able to give blood.

Walking Out of Aglow

God bless you. Today, I walked into Aglow and after singing two songs I walked out. I had quiet tears coming down my face from a simple comment that someone had said BUT it had to do with a prayer that I had given the day before for a dear friend. I felt I had to leave. I felt I had failed. God knows why and God will handle it. No one knew what I had prayed for but I prayed with all my heart. I appreciate the time you gave me. You are helping me to understand that my prayers take time and sometimes are answered in unique ways. I trust you God. I know you will carefully handle the situation in a manner that is wonderful. Thank you.

What a wonderful day, Today is Sunday and I woke up so very very excited. I don't know why. I knelt on my knees before Communion and prayed that you forgive me then during the church service today I took my message to the Cross to ask for even doubting you. Thank you so much for forgiving me. God you are my savior. You are in control not I. You will handle all my concerns with great care.
Thank you, clc

Lord change me

Lord I am so blessed and really thrilled at the CHALLENGE you sent my way. I have had to humble myself rather than to snap at my Bible instructor. I am learning self control. I have been challenged with name calling, acusations and encouragement to withdraw. The interesting thing is that I have said nothing during the class. I thank you Lord for keeping me with you and keeping me strong. MY PART OF THE ENTIRE SITUATION IS THAT I AM NOT INTIMIDATED, I AM NOT ANGRY AND I AM SO FULL OF LOVE FOR YOU that the entire situation just seems like a comedy. My first challenge was a dilly but I think I did ok. Keep me with you as other challenges come up. I know the Devil will put them in my way. YOU ARE SO TOTALLY AWESOME. I thank you so much for the support of my Pastor.